Teeth Clenching: March 3 – Entry 2

Last night I clenched my teeth. Just like everything, I cannot go back and change that. My jaw is tired, my teeth are sensitive, yet I continue to slightly grind and clench them at this very moment. I have stopped, but I can do it again. I will clench them so that my mouth will not hang open. I would not want to just sit here and let my mouth be open and let it just hang as if I was thoughtless, listless.

If I clench my teeth then I will not show that I am angry, mad, sad, disappointed. However, my eyes will still tell you how I feel. If I do not clench my teeth then I have to let my voice tell you. That would not be well thought out… that would not be planned. Close your mouth; do not say anything think about it. But why should I think about it? Is it my problem, often times not. But I care, and I am ill and I will hold it all in as tight as I can, clenching and then forgetting that my teeth at glued shut and then scrap them together. The noise is unbearable even to me; I can imagine…others think so too. I then quickly let go, if I grind consistently it will hurt my teeth, hurt my wallet, the habit is not cheap. Nevertheless, … I can control it, it controls all the rest.